HMM ding a ling..!
yday, went to BLA..... lol,
fun day was allllll good :)
we went on major high cos we were concentrating so much during the day!! =)
lunch was good
new favourite: kimchi fried rice
dinner was good n
o favourites there... oh apart from dumplings which was, always will be a favourite

i love.. love love love
trying new foods!
esp w/ him lol ...... + i like going to BLA
that is it.

- tammy's world is always a happy world :)
thnx




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here, infront of me .. is a white plate... very clean, very new... with absolutely nothing on it.
i'm happy with the way it is.. because
i choose what goes on the plate.. what i like, and what i dislike
yet on some other people's plates...... is nothing
but yet, when they are offered something - whether good or bad
they choose to take it
so really, their plates are full of rubbish.

this is the thing that really pisses me off
it pisses me off, to see people who don't think
or that.. people who just let things off the hook, because they just simply don't want to
use their brains, ponder over it a bit more.

the other day, i went to church....
wasn't catholic, was an evangelical church.
so it starts off all good.. and stuff
then comes the part where.. we had to sing
the pastor and his wife... were doing the talking.. and says "please join in, even those non-Christians who don't know this song"
... excuse me?
why should i be referred to as a non-Christian?
although it was a bit indirect.. but i know, everyone in the church WAS Christian.. apart from my family.
it pisses me off to know that.. in a church where their ideas and morals and TALKS are portrayed as "acceptance of others"
and yet..... just because, i'm a middle-classed Catholic.. i am referred to as different.
the pastor talks about a church.. accepts beggars, the poor...... (+ i am considered poor because i haven't found "God" yet.)
i'm sorry, but i don't think i would not go into a church
who doesn't accept ME for ME.
are we also to say that, God won't accept me for me?
because i'm simply, not Christian?
even if i DO believe that there is a God up there?

the other thing.. is that...
spirituality vs. reality
two, very abstract things.
lets start with the individual
so......... within us, we have a spirituality side of us.
the extent of it's importance within us varies from person to person - depending on experiences and how much you have developed as a person.
BUT if we have INDIVIDUAL VS. COLLECTIVE
then, for sure - the collective must have influence on the individual
ok - so i went to church.. and the pastor tells us, seeing as the church has just started
to donate 10% of how much you make each week, to the offering
lol, okay i put it a bit direct - because a church would never pressure you like that, would they?
because it's more about God.. and how he wants us to come together
in order for us to come together, we need a church, thus we need YOUR money to build it.
what about if we took.. COLLECTIVE VS. COLLECTIVE
ie. CHURCH VS. POLITICS
very subtle, but the church does have a major impact on politics
because ofcourse, it's majorly powerful
and this is what the world is made of
pOWER POWER POWER POWER
dominating those who are weak.

ok that had absolutely nothing to do with what i had to say... infact, i'm confusing myself.
this is truly my beliefs.. and whoever reads this
please don't hurt me. kthnx.
i, myself, believe in God
but God is not my way of life..
because God only assists me in life
i do not believe that, God is right next to me right now and watching me blog this
God is up there, with a set of rules.. telling me what is right or wrong
but because i have my own conscious, my own mind.. i am given the choice
to choose... which path to go down. i'm not going to DIE if i make the wrong choice (unless .. it's real fatal :| )
but, i will learn from my own mistakes
at the same time, those around me....
try and persuade me.. that they really know, what God wants.. what God is like
that.. God will get angry if i do this, God will be happy if i do that
what would you know?
have you been to heaven? spoken to God lately?
i will not let anyone push me into a box of thoughts, telling me how i should be thinking.

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take #2
stupid idiot.
i'm not just a 17 year old.
i'm not clueless, because i do know a lot
so don't act like you know everything either
in the end, i will make better choices than you are making right now.