blogging this late is the best
esp when you're in a good mood
ah..... the peace.

so.. went to bb's house today, again lol....
vicky has pulled out a few seams off my dress..
AND I WAS TRYING SO HARD TO PROTECT MYSELF!
hmmmmm! ya, lovely lunch
and then matrix reloaded.....! was funfunfun! i love my bb~

the other day was judgement day with the parents...
hmmmm..... thinking about it freaks me out
everything is very VERY serious now
but at the same time, it's a good feeling
b/c he wants me to know his family/his family know me
i think i kinda knew what was expected of me.... so, i can't say i didn't try
but yes.... if they like me, they like me
and if they don't .. well, i have flaws - but that doesn't stop me from running my race

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tonight went to elms...
thought it was going to be crap.... but it didn't turn out that bad.
saw people i haven't seen in.... a year hHAHA
and it's lovely that this best friend reminds me, and bugs me about being friends with her..
hmmm i'm trying to uncover the truth
well, the thing is... i suppose, i wouldn't mind being your friend again
i really wouldn't
but at the same time, i know you brought out the worse in me
and if i was to choose, i'd rather go my own path
maybe you could have the same, or less effect on me
but i'd rather not, i love me for me.........
and i don't want it to change.