i still love rainy days.. and just sitting inside
watching tv.. and being lazy on the couch.

holidays start from next week.
i'm actually not all that excited about it
because b will be starting work.. therefore, tmr will probs be the last
friday night he will come down here T_T'
i don't even know why i'm a lil down about that!

mmmm...
nothing ever really goes on in my life now.
the past couple of days seems like it's just flown by so easily
i like the way i'm feeling now..
really setting my mind on the things i have in my life
and the things that i once had, and now have lost... well, i'm glad -
once again i can pull myself together and have not made an emphasis in my life
BUT.. i must go on a lil rant before i do anything:

i believe in friendships.
i mean, most of the time i sound so negative when i talk about people surrounding me..
but i can honestly say, i believe in them.
there can be friends who are loyal at heart, and love you no matter what.
i'm not gonna flatter friendships, but today..
hearing a lame and dodgy excuse for not celebrating a friend's birthday...
it's pathetic.
what kind of an excuse is 'it will waste a whole day'?
specifically.. a COUPLE OF HRS - and considering one of you live so damn close
it doesn't hurt to get ur butt out of your house, and join in a celebration.
if YOU expect others do love you, and be joyous on your occasion
then you must give the same back.
not ' it will waste my whole day'
no, IT WILL TAKE UP A COUPLE OF HRS, BUT FOR A FRIEND - THAT'S OKAY ISN'T IT?
and i know, if you two ying and yang's were asked to do the same for each other - you'd go to any extent to make the other's celebration worth while

through all my years at school, i have bonded with each one of you.
i do not doubt that i have touched your lives - because i know i have made an impact on you
some how or another.
but after so many years, i am absolutely sick and tired of this shit
the shit that i am given, the shit that others are given
because you chose to branch off, and break apart from us.
we've spent too long wondering what to do..
that now, we've decided we won't make amends to the mistakes
we have made.

if you feel true friendship is what you've got
well, i hope it all goes well for you
because you will NEVER
and i mean, never -
be considered as a close friend to me.

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on another note, i love my boyfriend :)