new year, a new beginning.

- or so they say

i didn't write a 'last blog of 08' because i didn't know what i wanted to capture. was i going to try and fit in all the - good and bad - i experienced in '08? or all the relationships i gained, lost or found? was i going to be thankful on those who made an impact on me? no.. i didn't want to write anything like that. perhaps time has diluted memories and feelings i once had... because right now, sitting in my bf's room and writing this.. i don't want to give any thank you notes, or any i'm sorry's. i don't want to say what i want to become in '09 ... because the truth is, i don't know.

a lot of people use ny's resolutions to try and become a better person.. truth is, you forget that you have a ny resolution until the end of the year arrives. we try and make ourselves a little better by perhaps 'commiting' to a stupid vow we make at the transition of the coming year.. lets save ourselves already. a new year doesn't make us better, it just refreshes your mind for the new bullshit to come. happy enduring guys!

ps. this is a very blunt blog, because half way through.. i thought of a friend who has recently hurt me. therefore, some of the contents....... may not be exactly what i think. i think.