i am used to getting things my way
and for that, i admit that i am spoilt
very spoilt.

up to this very day, i still throw tantrums when things don't go my way.
biggest girly-girl in the entire world.

maybe it's just me being moody...
hmmm
i really wish i wasn't this way.
because i know i end up upsetting myself.. but most importantly,
i upset others - esp my parents.

tonight, i was being very inconsiderate.
(...i just kept blaming pms)
i got upset over something very little and insignificant
and i blew it up into a gigantic mess
it wasn't until my dad came home,
when i realised how wrong i was.
i am stubborn, and i hate admitting i am wrong.. and i don't think i've ever said sorry....
it's so hard for me to apologise... but i hope you know that i regret chucking a sissy fit (and feel pretty shit abt it)

i really have to stop pulling this stunt. it's not even a stunt, i just can't find the right word atm.
but i have to stop it.
ben's copped it a lot, my bro has, my mum and dad have.
urgh.
TAMMY, WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU??