i feel ..

when you're so used to seeing someone on weekends, speaking to someone everyday..... it's not (or it shouldn't) amaze you if they become attached - as i am with my s/o.

his great grandmother passed away the other day, so he has to go praying in the mountains every sat and praying at the temple every sun...... for the next 7 weeks. now, i know i am the biggest whinger(sp?) in the world........ but it just breaks my heart.... A LOT when i am away from him on weekends. feels like my weekend is incomplete when i don't get to spend the whole of sat/sun or friday nights with him.

when stuff like this happens, i start questioning whether i am every going to be independent enough, like i once was. will i be able to be without him?

i get so grouchy when i don't get to see him...... and i know i got a bit angry at him last night...... but is it excusable because i just really, really, REALLY enjoy spending time with him?

i'm not sure.

and i have turned into a dependent, attached, un-able-to-function-without-him freak.

that's starting to scare me.