I've never realised how much I love and appreciate structure in my life.

I love planning, love organising and love things done a certain way - my way.

So when I'm trying to study for property market analysis - my last exam - i get really... really.. REALLY.. frustrated.

I'm not sure if this is how all environmental subjects are structured (or more so, unstructured)... but it annoys me when lectures do not coincide with tutorials. It also annoys me that there is no clear guideline on what is going to be on the exam... and it frustrates me even more when the readings we are meant to complete is from a university written text book (which technically, isn't written by the professors as it is only extracts from other sources) containing too much information which we didn't even look over in lectures. I hate that the lecturer is so slack, I hate that he skips over slides and says "you should know this".

All of this... leads to... demotivation, boredom and plenty of struggling.

Which just goes to show, I get quite lost when things aren't structured.

I'm lost and don't know how to approach this...

*

He is leaving next week.

Although I try and stay strong, not show any signs of sadness from the outset..

It shatters me on the inside.