hmm.. how do i put this?
so i disregard everyone's feelings
but my own

i've been self-centred, selfish and ignorant
failing to see that.. there are people who care for me and love me
yet i just don't give a damn because in my mind, they are not important to me
my heart caught up with me today - i do love them
perhaps i love them because i feel attached to them
i feel the need to have them around
but not because i love them for who they are
- does it matter?
at this stage, no.

yes, i don't know what it is that i want right now.

what an unusual blog.