hmm
uni offers came out - went to fed sq
ben and i were all sweaty and shit.. and i said: ok if i get into my course we're going to go buy bathers and go swimming
when we got to fed sq, we lined up for newspaper...
opened it up (this was when my knees all retarded and weak and shit)
and then i found my name
and i started screaming and jumping up and down
we ended up going swimming the next day b/c we endded up being too lazy
had lots of fun at the pool cos we got all the noodle foam things and tried to make ourselvesn stay afloat - needed 4 hahahahhaa yeah that was fun.

and then i also went with rachel to go shopping
got some o-gooodies

today i went with dad to richmond, hoping to get some oroton frames
sally was closed - i was angry
i am still angry.

sweet stuff.

yday i went to watch marley and me
i drove to crown
i was in bad traffic - crawling speed
i started reading my book in traffic
and then i starting play DS
like omg.


anyway, i feel like screaming :)

so i have an ear infection
i'm deaf in the left ear so if u stand on that side whilst talking to me
i only catch some of what you're saying
... i picked up the phone at work yday and listened with my left ear
the guy had to repeat half of what he was saying

i am really not excited because i have to work today, again.

god i need to do something exciting

re-edit**
i have 15 mins to get ready and pop into my car and drive to work
...... still in bed + pj's

ok - so i had so much trouble sleeping last night .. lots of trouble.
i lay in bed twisting and turning
and a thought came up
(now.. i am in no way suggesting anything, nor suggesting i want anything like this for the matter - well, not for the moment)

when do couples in a relationship realise they want to get married?
like... is it really in movies where you suddenly realise your s/o is so important to you, that you want to spend the rest of your life with them?
i'm sure in some cases.. it's more of 'damn we've been together for 10 years, might as well'
or it may be others edging you on to become officially ''one''
if a relationship is breezing through perfectly fine, perhaps sometimes you don't want to fuck things up by getting married - i don't know
i'm not really sure what point i am making

on the other hand, i just came back from dars
i saw a guy eating rock deli chips and i'm like, 'awesome! WHERE DID U GET THEM??'
he pointed to the kitchen table, behind the sofa ...
so i ran for it - as i do with my food
and ran straight into heavy dingdong weights behind the sofa
so now, my foot is totally bruised
and also, golf seem to take a big effect on me .. my hip muscles and arms are in great pain

that's it for today :)
cheeeeeerio!

ps. my god it is so hot - i am still not a big fan of the beach because i am quite fair skinned and burn way - way too easily :( then it hurts :(

i wonder if i am slowly losing my opinion on things.
or perhaps i am slowly adapting opinions of others, and forgetting to think.
OR MAYBE i am forgetting how to think
(i have been sick for the past 2 days, i still have a fever)

i have been distanting myself from others.. for the past month or so
i'm not sure if it's because i want to ... or because things have just fallen like this
my once-upon-a-time close friends .. well, i wouldn't say we don't contact each other anymore - but it is less than it used to be
it may well be because i spend too much time with my s/o
but.. at the same time, my s/o provides me a safety net i can always lean on.

i understand what i have to do..
and what i need to do in order to achieve it
(i'm sure i've used this line so many times............)

but maybe i need to simmer in this laziness for a bit longer...
hmmmmmm......

*

i went to play golf yday
ben bought a new golf club set..... so it's cool 8-)
but now i aam seriosuly sore all over- you would never guess right??
saving up for a new phone :)
and YEHH
right now i am talking to jimmy
hohohohhoho
and he will read this
ok
byebye

new year, a new beginning.

- or so they say

i didn't write a 'last blog of 08' because i didn't know what i wanted to capture. was i going to try and fit in all the - good and bad - i experienced in '08? or all the relationships i gained, lost or found? was i going to be thankful on those who made an impact on me? no.. i didn't want to write anything like that. perhaps time has diluted memories and feelings i once had... because right now, sitting in my bf's room and writing this.. i don't want to give any thank you notes, or any i'm sorry's. i don't want to say what i want to become in '09 ... because the truth is, i don't know.

a lot of people use ny's resolutions to try and become a better person.. truth is, you forget that you have a ny resolution until the end of the year arrives. we try and make ourselves a little better by perhaps 'commiting' to a stupid vow we make at the transition of the coming year.. lets save ourselves already. a new year doesn't make us better, it just refreshes your mind for the new bullshit to come. happy enduring guys!

ps. this is a very blunt blog, because half way through.. i thought of a friend who has recently hurt me. therefore, some of the contents....... may not be exactly what i think. i think.