Remembering and learning that it is okay to be by yourself once in a while.

" We make a living by what we get, but we make a life with what we give" - Sir Winston Churchill

Thank you for what you have done for me. I understand what I mean to you. My only hope is that you will one day see that I would do the same for you.

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The past 3 weeks seem like a roller coaster ride. And as I try to explain to my family and friends how I feel each day, I think it's tiresome for them... and beginning to be stressful for me.

Yes, I do need you in my life. Yes, I do want you to remain in my life as my other half.

But as I continue to dwell in these horrible feelings, I slowly lose myself...

What do I want to do with my own life? Maybe if I figure this out first.... I'll have hope finding a proper solution.

Love, should we use our brains or our hearts?

Love is always associated with the heart. Humans have always believed that love comes from the heart, that we feel the most when we use our hearts. But should we really be using our hearts when it comes to relationships?

It's the same old cliche story, girl meets boy, they fall in love... and soon they are in a deep relationship which seems like nothing could break them apart. The reality is, no matter what intimate relationship we are in, the partners we are with are always different to us. They will always be on a different 'wave length' - since no two individuals are the same right?

But what happens when these differences draw two lovers apart? The result is perhaps a relationship which is held together only by the love they have for each other.

Is this enough?

I'm guilty of being blinded by love. I know a lot of things aren't going right in my relationship, but yet I choose to hold on - because I know when I'm with him, I am happy. And even though the world constantly sends signals to us, alarming us that... we're actually not that compatible... I still believe that, as long as I am happy with him, that's all that should matter.

Is that so wrong?

Awww....

I've finally realised that I have grown out of my ... crazy colour nail polish phase.

:(

Now i'm stuck on neutrals, nudes, blacks.... nothing too crazy anymore.

What a shame, what do I do with all the nail polish colours I own??

How many 'true loves' to you get in a lifetime?

When I say true love, I mean... someone you are with that you feel - yes, they are the one.

I'm not sure how many you get, but I know it is rare to come across one. Many people spend their whole lives, hoping to bump into or meet their perfect one. I believe that perfect is an individual definition. Perfect encapsulates all flaws in the opposition, but yet you are still willing to embrace and love them for who they are.

And what happens when you find the one but the timing isn't right?

Do you believe that.... time will converge your path together later in the future?

I don't.

I honestly believe that it is now or never. Maybe this is because of my pessimistic view on change. I have seen what change can do to people, do to couples. The choices we make in our daily lives changes our paths constantly, moulding our individual paths.

But hey, maybe some couples are lucky. Maybe for some couples... their paths are so similar, that even a little divergence will still lead them together once again. For me, not quite the same. We both lead separate lives, we have separate wants and needs...

Maybe this will draw us further apart.

I know I am really slow on the bandwagon... but I am currently craving for this lipstick. The Chanel Rouge Coco lipstick in Mademoiselle hits the spot for me..... and Vanessa Paradis looks absolutely divine. This particular colour is known as the chameleon colour of the range, it's meant to suit every set of lips and looks different on each person. Sadly, it's still very VERY popular and a lot of places have sold out :( oh well, will continue hunting!