ok, before i go pick up my mac gel eyeliner ... hehehehe...!

i shall blog.

i think i'm happy with everything i have right now, everything i have given up to get to where i am today

i mean, i'm never ever going to magically wake up one day and be a super genius... but i can work my way there. with determination, discipline and diligence... i'll hopefully get a reward for what i've been anticipating.......

add oil tammy, this is it!

god i'm so immature
i need to learn to fucking grow up - seriously.

learn to deal with it, not release all my anger onto my friends, family, boyfriend.

fuck.

after all this time, you still manage to pop back into my mind and annoy the hell out of me....

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i've made new nails today~~ lavender sparkles!
loving anythign that sparkles and shines!!!!!!

anyway, cny tmr....... same old same old.
a little drama happening along the way
which has just reinforced my own beliefs

i hate, HATE HATE HATE HATEHAHTEHATHETHE
absolutely despise being pushed around, or made to fit/be someone i am not.
maybe it's not even about being someone i'm not, maybe it's that..... i hate it when people's opinions HAVE to matter and i have to change since i'm being forced into that position.
i am a person who believes that respecting elders is always a must.
i believe that once you are capable of looking after yourself, you should look after your elders as they have done for you

but, i cannot tolerate elders who think that their authority makes their every word correct.

i do have a certain respect for elders, but at the same time, i believe there should be equality too... i too, am a human being. and i don't need your comments and BLAGH BLAHS to affect the way i have to dress, talk, act and blah blah SHIT.

i have been brought up in a household where there are equal rights to speak up.... doesn't seem the same in your case......

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it has been ages!! hello dear deposit box!!

wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooahssssss!!

so, been spending a lot of time with the other lately.. he is taking annual leave off work to do summer school.. we're doing it together! we've had lots of time to just muck around, hang out in city, eat at any random time, sleep over at each other's more than usual! it's been wooooonderful! he is adorable and yknow, lately we haven't had any fights or arguments.. just enjoying each other's company <3

so i started back at the gym in november.. after exams. it's been good.. have to admit, i'm a big addict now and feel the need to go every second day. i don't ever feel too much of the "cbf gym" but instead, am really motivated. i suppose sport of any kind - anythin that gets ur heart pumping - DOES change you're mood.. you will be much happier! good outlook on life! yay!

i've been a crazy addict over beauty skincare products.. trying different hair, face masks... treatments, yadiya ~ i'm NOT quite sure if it actually works for me because the only difference i can tell between products are whether they dry out my skin or not! i mean, i really used to just do the good ol' cleanser and mousturiser after shower.. it's not much different now - apart from doing a couple of masks each month. i'm very conscious of skin cancer.. always 30+ when i go out... don't want too many freckles la!!

next week is qld! how exciting! although i don't feel very excited atm.. hopefully it will get better. hmm... dreamworld package? or movieworld package? hopefully i won't get annoyed T_T" i get annoyed too easily i think!

been doin some reeeading! time traveler's wife? mmm.. i don't think it's the greatest book ever, i don't really understand the concept perhaps? because time travelling is absurd! but still, its a romantic novel... which i <3

need to start reading afr to be more knowledgeable abt zee world!

sigh, writing a blog so tiring! can't keep up with my thoughts

write soon, hopefully!